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patricia72 said:
Lar, I know what you mean about the "page expired" situation.... I was hoping for a more personalised insight but I appreciate you response.

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Unfortunately, the piece that I wrote, the personal response, that's what disappeared. It was an inspired bit of writing, and I can't remember what I said. That's why I was really upset that it disappeared. Some things are just "once off"s. You get one shot at them.

Re: the becoming the observer thing

Just as my ego has fragmented as a protective mechanism, I can mould aspects of my ego to create what I call pseudo-objectivity. The pseudo bit is because I really can't be truly objective about self, but, that's what I'm trying to create, an objective observer of self. Then, if I can learn to manage that observer sense effectively, I can figure out how to "position" it so as to observe the dissociation. That was the key to my figuring out what was happening to me. I caught one, live, in real time. Observed the heck out of it. Mystery solved.

Lar