So I asked T, in my doorknob move .... " so, do all clients want to be special?" she thought and said yes , definitely.... As she adjust her shirt.... And I then asked " so if I asked you if I were really special or just think I am would you tell me? She hesitated, bit her lip, "um , well" ... Just say it I say... " no, it's not in your best interest "....ok right , but now I will wonder ... O never mind.

Her answer didn't really answer my question... If she said yes i was special then mommy loves me and ill be hooked ( not in my best interest ), if she said no your not special I would have been devastated (not in my best interest). Maybe she sidestepped the question for fear I couldn't handle the truth or she didn't want to lie to me.

Are there signs to look for to really know your special? Shaky boundaries and disclosure of personal things are those signs? I'm beginning to wonder if it even matters?

I have half a mind to delete this, but the other half needs input.