Hi Chandler, and HappyCheeks, just wanted to say, you really are NOT a failure, not at all. The fact you are here and helping others is testament to your superior qualities as a human being. And that goes for everyone here! It's the DEPRESSION that makes us think we're failures, it's not US. I know, easily said, but I've been there and back, and it's true.
Sending you all great big (((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))) because you truly are wonderful people. Don't believe what the depression makes you think - you're not a failure at all - quite the opposite, and stronger than most people on this earth, for going through what we go through.