i feel safe with my therapist.

but she's not always available.

how can i feel safe inside me when my therapist is not there? currently, inside my head doesn't feel safe. i have to fight fight fight the thoughts, the feelings and such. i try to not attach to them ... just watch them as they float by.... but they are so big, it's like they fill up the space in my head and there's no place for them to go, so they just stay.

sorry for all the sad talk... really really rough day at work. my self worth is about zero...

... i see her in three days. wish she had a couch so i could just curl up on it and cry.


thanks for 'listening'.