I can relate to wanting to feel special (but then again, I think we all can). I think, and this might just be me, but I think that if I feel special to my T and am his favorite for whatever reason, then that means that I'm important enough to be thought of out of session. Like, I mean more than just that therapy hour in his eyes/mind. I feel that if I'm special to my T then I matter. And I need that outside validation because I can't give it to myself.....I don't know how to give that to myself.

I'm desperate to know if I'm special to my T. I'm desperate to know if I'm special to anyone. This is why I asked him last week if he thought we "click" person-to-person wise (I posted about it). He stated all the good/positive qualities about me but dodged my actual question. It confused me and ticked me off. Nothing like trying to make sense of the senseless...