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is anyone out there? anyone listening?

feel isolated and alone...am a bit calmer now at home...slept, that helped too...but still scared of tomorrow...world feels too much to handle.....like a landmine I have to negotiate, fear of panic, flashbacks...

and I still don't know how to handle the hyper-vigilance as the terror and fear and flight-fright comes on so fast...I can soothe myself once I'm home and safe, but when I am so emotionally strung out and ready to run away from everyone...and am met also with stigma and miscomprehension and laughter....for my pain..and am re-traumatised all over again...

can noone relate to any of what I experience?