My T says I'm more normal than I think I am. Apparently other people are way more f'ed up than I think they are. LOL.

About the Sui stuff, my T says that thinking about ending it is completely normal. Having a plan moves it more toward the "not typical" end of the spectrum. [He's forever talking to me about the "spectrum of normal" and about how behaviors are on a continuum.] Part of the training that cognitive behaviorists get is to "normalize" our thoughts and behaviors so we experience less anxiety about them. I happen to know that, and periodically point out to my T that I know what he's doing and I'm not buying it. He doesn't find that amusing. When I do that, I can see him get a little frustrated, so I try not to do it too often.