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Originally Posted by Innerzone
This is going to sound stupid for someone my age, but, my teddy bear. I imagine him having healing powers and will hold him, or sometimes put right on my head (lying down, lol, not like a hat(!)) to block out the world and focus on trying to clear my mind from endless rumination. I have held his hand (well, paw!) in times when I am acutely aware of just how very alone I am in the world to feel like I have a friend. Who will listen to ANYTHING. Oh, the things he's heard...
I also do focus/trance out to things like leaves. You know, like someone my age "should".  |
When I'm really, really upset, I get out my "puppy pillow" from when I was an infant and hug it tight and have a big messy cry. It's a pillow shaped like a dog's head, with a silly happy puppy face embroidered on it. It used to have a matching blankie but I've never been the blankie type (even as a kid) so I gave that to charity. For some reason, I couldn't part with the pillow.
I guess I feel like it connects me to my mom; when I'm hysterically upset, which is fairly rare, I always want my mom to comfort me. She's not here anymore, but the puppy pillow reminds me of how she would hold me and rock me when I was a kid. Nowadays I have to be careful to not cry
on the puppy pillow as it is 30+ years old and I don't want it to get all gross.
