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For ADULT eyes only (sorry but please no younger ones/alters or immature people)
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Back a few years ago my t asked me if I had an alter that came out during... Intimate relationships. I didn't think so at the time and still don't really think so but...
I've noticed a connection with that lately. Every time it seems to start, even though I am in a safe and committed relationship, every time the intimacy begins I start to space out. It feels like something is pulling me away and it happens every time. I have to focus and do grounding skills often while I am trying to not ruin the mood. Come to think of it though there have been nights I thought I fell asleep in the beginning stages of the intimacy but perhaps I didn't?
Anyways, just wondering if anyone else deals with this and how you can tell if your switching during or not. When I can't really feel it or anything and am kind of just watching from far behind my eyes, is it still me or could it be someone else?
I don't know if anyone can answer this for me and I'm sure I should bring it up with a t but as I've posted many times before, I don't have one yet but it becomes more and more obvious that I need one with each day that goes by. Any advice or understanding would be so very appreciated! Thanks for listening.
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