(((((((kiya)))))))))

You put a lot of thought and honesty into your letter to T. It seems like along with the good in your relationship, there was a lot of pain, and confusion, and misunderstandings...no wonder it was so exhausting!

I hope that writing it all down helps you find closure on your side. I know that when I am face to face with someone, my mind tends to go blank unless I have written, practiced, etc...particularly if there is any sort of conflict. It seems like you are really clear on exactly what T is asking you to be clear on..where the relationship went bad.

What a hard time for you!! Maybe looking at your T relationship honestly...the good and the bad...will make it easier to move on.

Sending so so so many hugs.