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I'm having a difficult time telling the difference between myself (whom is supposed to be the host... I think...) and my alters... I don't know if it's my schizophrenia part doing this and perhaps I am "dilusional" in thinking I could be an alter some times but where is that line drawn? How do you know? As much as I deny and refuse to "believe" I have DID, I know I do. I know what caused it, I know why I have it. I know why the doctors insist I have it. I know why I should believe I have it. But I still have doubts. Despite the thoughts I can tell when I'm not me, but there is a difference in how I feel when I'm in that fog and when I just don't know who I am. My head is clear when I don't feel like me. So am I still me but forgetting me or am I them? Goodness this is so gosh darned confusing!
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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