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So the summary of the story is:
Around June my boyfriend advised me of his intentions on proposing. He wanted to use his family heirloom for my ring but his mother said she could not find it (although I don't know if that is true, I have a feeling she just doesn't like me but she's been super nice to me from day 1 so it could be all in my head).
August rolls around and during a very upsetting moment I told him I wanted to marry him, that I wanted to do it relatively soon (within a year and a half) and we agreed once we were done with school we would get married.
Due to that upsetting moment, it caused my world to go spiralling down. I became an emotional wreck and our relationship suffered. We are climbing back up in the relationship and my emotions are somewhat stabalizing but during that turmoil I asked him if he changed his mind about marrying me. He said maybe we should wait. Later on I asked him if he ever planned to since he said maybe we should wait and he says the only reason he said to wait is because that's what he thought I wanted.
So now here we are and I don't know what we are going to do. But I love him, I want to be with him, I want to marry him. I want our relationship to be right through God. I don't know what to do. Will it ever be normal? Will we ever have a normal engagement if any at all? Should I just go ahead and ask him again? I'm tired of waiting to know, we've been together 2.5 years and I don't want to keep waiting but I don't want to overburden him with marriage talk. What do I do?
Sorry guess I couldn't make it as short as I planned. Thanks for listening!
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