I hate to admit it, but that cycle in your first post you mentioned, does seem to be quite true...
I can loose a T within 2 weeks and never mean to loose them... it just happens.. it's the same as i was growing up with teachers. my parents told me it was because the teachers had to deal with me each year, and couldn't take it no more, and they had to quit.. each year, each place I went, many many schools, each teacher quit... EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM!! All the way up to my 7th grade year.. then it started changing.. but... still..
That cycle DOES repeat itself.. and I either give it my all, and they run like a bat out of hell, or I hide my true self, scared to show it... there must be some sort of flaw there that I can't identify... or else why would everyone ditch and run off once they really saw me...
..... no one... really knows me... not in full... they may know a ton.. but no one knows it all.. that includes myself...