what is there to look forward to in the new year? more suffering? more pain? more hopelessness? i just don't know what to do anymore... i still have to go to work - i have no choice. how do i keep putting on the show - making it appear that i'm all right when i really am not? why do i even bother any more? i just can't take the pain!!! it's too much. it's overwhelming. it's getting to be too much. no one understands! my psychiatrist says to give it another week or two for the medicine to work. what if i just can't wait that long? i know...i have to be patient... show this post to my pschyartist... tell someone i can trust... open up to my husband... go to the hospital... consider ect... call a friend... watch a movie... read my favorite book... go to sleep... do something i enjoy... call someone i can open up too... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! it just hurts so much! too much...