Many of us have walked in your shoes. Holidays such as New Year's eve are difficult times.

Perhaps try to think of today as any other day - just one day in life. Some are good, some are tough. We will all have our ups and downs. There is light ahead of you - even though you can't see it now. I know - many of us here know - it is there, but sometimes we just can't see it.

I hope that you discover there are many of us here at PC who do understand.

And, IRL - I hope you can open up to your husband. Cry on his shoulder. Ask him to stick with you and help you through this tough time.

I wish you the best. There is hope. You can get through this and find happiness again.