Hi Happycheeks,
I agree with everyone, Facebook can be a real downer at times...I feel a little jealous sometimes too....and why not have a vent, this is a good place to do it because we understand where you are coming from.....Your a valuable human, and who wants to be "so-called normal", you sound pretty exceptional to me.

When I finished my computer course I rang heaps of different business and asked for work experience....I eventually found a place and at the end of the week they gave me a job and a pay check...I was your age then....Maybe you could try that....

I truly hope thinks work out for you, all the best with your apprenticeship ...
Big Hug