I completely agree with Kris. You need to see someone now. I would try calling the place where you have an appt, and tell them that your depression is severe, you are going through withdrawal and will need to go to the emergency room today for meds if the doc can't see you today. If he/she still can't see you, then off to the hospital for you girl!

At the ER, just tell them about the withdrawal, you are depressed, can't get an appointment, and sick from lack of meds. They can prescribed meds, made sure you are safe and send you home.

Just promise us that you will be honest with them about whether you are or are not feeling suicidal. That's really important. No matter how bad things may seem at any one moment, remember, that things will change. Bad moments leave. Bad days go. Bad weeks leave. Even bad months. I've had bad years....they go too. Eventually, we find the good ones....good moments, good days....good weeks, months....yup, even good years. They will come. I promise.

You'll get through this. You'll get through the dark times. We have all been there. We help each other get through those tunnels to the bright shiney stuff on the other side.

Be kind to yourself...gentle as if you were taking care of a small child you love. That's the care you need right now.

You can have a bit of cry, blow that nose...then call your doc!

Emmy

"If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion." -- The Dalai Lama