Thanks, but I have zero intention of begging people to be in my life. Did enough of that over the years and it only brought me heartache and a giant rejection burger. Not interested in forming new relationships either. I'm TIRED of having to apologize my irrational outbursts and so OVER trying to get people to understand when it's clear they don't give a fudge. Yes I know, my relationships suffered b.c of undxd bpd and not my bp, but i'm more comfortable on this forum. Anyway, I'm done with people. For good. I'll figure out how to do this on my own.