(((((Nicole)))))

I had one too a long time ago. A whole host of emotions have been connected to it for the last 17 years, even some I didn't know would be connected. I've worked through it a bit with T and have some way to go but it has bought some relief. I can feel your pain and know that it's eating you up inside. I really urge you to take that first step and show your T the note. It was hard for me to say because I found it hard to utter the 'A' word but I somehow managed to get it out. Sorry to go on about me, I just know how you're feeling. Keep safe, sending you strength and hugs.