I remember, I thought you were going to reveal this a few months ago, but then you didn't. We never know how we are going to react until we are actually in the situation. I would always think, oh there are other options, but as soon as I was a few days late, I would be flipping thru the Yellow Pages under A. Now, as I have come to realize how afraid I have always been of my own mother, and of the times she did put my life in danger, it almost feels like an alter has always been in very tight charge of birth contol, ruling with an iron hand - no kids allowed. I never even considered letting it happen. As they don't say, No mistakes were made. Thank you for sharing this here, nic.