Hi,

I think I'm about to completely lose my partner.

Although, at my request, he moved out in June, we will have been together for 13 years in February.

I've had depression since infancy and these last few years have been particularly bad for me. So bad that I was planning to take my own life last year and that's why I asked my partner to leave, so I'd have a place to kill myself and he would'nt be the one to discover my corpse.

Last night we were talking/arguing? and I told him about it - he was shocked, I now regret telling him as I am unsure if he can cope with this news and I fear that it will cause us to split up.

We texted today and he says he needs space and time as he is shocked by this news.

I feel foolish telling him. I ****ed up, what was I thinking.

Mark.