I am so frustrated. As you guys know, my husband has been incredibly supportive. He was helping me when I'm really tired by staying up with the baby. Well, forget that. He's had the past few days off and instead of staying up with the baby so I can sleep he keeps me awake until he's ready to go to sleep. We're usually talking about 3 or 4 in the morning. When I tell him I need to get to sleep because the baby will get up at 7 or 8 it's like he gets ticked. So I've haven't had near enough sleep. He gets up at 1 or 2 and acts like he's doing me this huuuuge favor by sleeping half the day and then acting like he can't understand why I'm cycling or on the manic side.

This has gone on for three nights. This morning I am just a total, absolute train wreck. I'm irritated. I feel like I'm going to start crying any minute. One minute I'm ready to burst into tears and the next I feel like I want to break every freaking object in this house. At other times I feel like I took speed but want to lay down and just bawl for a few hours. When I start cycling like this and getting slammed with mixed states I'm not the most pleasant person in the world to be around. That or I just won't hardly talk to anyone. He woke up when I went into the bedroom to get dressed and noticed I'm having a hard time. I told him I really need some sleep, he says he's sorry and goes back to sleep. I seriously wanted to just throw something at him. Then I gurantee he'll come in here at, oh, 1 or 2 and whine about how tired HE is. I know I'll end up saying something not very nice along the lines of, "When you're bipolar, cycling, having mixed states and exhausted you can whine to me. Until then shut the hell up."

I HATE feeling this way, this totally screwed up and being so angry at my husband. Yes, I know he's supportive. Yes, I know he loves me. I'm aware of that. However, like it or not, there are times when we are all asses to our spouses and he's defiently up for a prize for that. I wish I could get just 6 or 7 hours of sleep and he's whining about the 10 he got. Poor, poor baby. Must be terrible.