WePow, thanks for the hugs and reading my last post. I get such a sinking feeling when I post more in my thread and I feel like no one reads it. I want to discuss that with my T because it's similar to why I stopped emailing her. It feels like "I'm gone, off the page and no one cares about me anymore." That feeling is giving me information and for once, I'm not lost in it. I'm curious about it and not judging myself or anyone here. I'm just very aware of the triggered feeling of being unimportant, ignored, invisible, pushed aside. I KNOW that is all twisted thinking. Wow! Even I think I'm progressing with this insight!