I am so sorry you are struggling. Maybe you should have gone out and gotten the pedicure for yourself, to treat yourself. Intensive care-taking can cause it's own depression (http://psychcentral.com/news/2010/04...ion/13114.html) and it is important to take care of ourselves so we can better take care of the other.

http://www.caregiver.org/caregiver/j...jsp?nodeid=847

I joined the National Family Caregiver's Association http://www.nfcacares.org/ so I could keep in touch with others going through what I was.