I did go to CAMHS (child and adolecant mental health services) but i am not going anymore because he blames everything on my parents (which i hate) and other people. Not actually my mental state and its useless. He just focuses on the past when i want ways of coping not what caused me to cope this way. Its a waste of time this CBT crap. With him anyway.

Since its a new year, that means a new start. I am going to stop self harming with no profesional help as it was a waste of time. So instead i will do it myself, help myself more than ghsn that man ever did.

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At the bottom line, does anyone know how i can begin recovery as i am jumping in blind. I make youtube videos under the name TearsOfBlood1111 and i find that helps but i cant do that all the time!