Last night. New Years. I made out with my friend. I have a boyfriend. I cheated. Oh god I hate myself so much. It was but wasn't an accident, I was drunk, he has a girlfriend too and you know what my decision is. Im going to tell my boyfriend and hope he can forgive me eventually. I love him and it was a mistake and I know. He just got online... Here we go wish me luck

I just hope this doesnt put me back into a downward spiral of depression...

Im 4 months clean as of Dec. 29..... I hope my mistake doesnt ruin it all for me...