@ justwannadisappear- yes! Exactly. Both t & pdoc have said how I look always happy, bubbly & smiling. I told t that I put on a good face and no one will ever see anything is wrong. I don't think he believed me till I came in one day a MESS. Lol I could barely get one sentence out.

He knows the bubbly personality isn't me 100% but were going very slow. He still says things like I said earlier in my posts but it's good to hear I'm not the only one cause I was thinking that I was.....

. Happy new year!