Hi
im new on here,im a dwm 54 really nice laid back guy,overweight,severe aniexty
im have been addicted to women all of my life sadistic personality disorder,
in this case,the woman has total control,and is metally and psycically abusesive,hard to believe
women with these traits are all im attracted to
they are out there ages 19 to 60 i befriend them,
my therapist says i have a builtin radar when im in a group of women,i somehow atract that one,and vise versa at age 54 how can i ever change that craving for that type of girl?
sexually im not able to get erect or have sex.
im also borderline personality rather than hurt myself,i find women to hurt my body for me
i guess i do not want to change as my tolerance to pain is extreme and i get offers from women to be used in video's of women inflicting pain on me,
my question?
If i feel okay inside letting a woman giving me psysical abuse on video helping her income out,and mentally she does not abuse me,i feel okay with that versus a woman abusing mentally that hurts worse than anything
so befriending women that abuse psycically and not mentally am i not improving myself?the 20s age group of women is the friendship age i attract?
any women out there in the 20s age group give me feedback as well as all age groups,men i know your thinking im gay or a *****,well im not!
I guess this is what 2 people agree on that being me and her?
there is no love,just friends only and she inflicts pysical pain which i crave
then is she getting more out of it then using me in a video and to use as a stress outlet?