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Originally Posted by delicatefade26
Thank you so much Soup...I'm just mad at myself because I thought I was in a space where I could just roll with the flow about T...and be okay with knowing that he might not get to my email until tomorrow...or that he might not be able to see me tomorrow (which I know this issue of not having a set time is ridiculous-and I think will always be a barrier...but there is nothing I can do about it...i already tried to quit because of it and was in so much grief and pain I was going nuts)...I felt I had made huge strides in being able to handle this...but every time I check my email and see that he has not responded sends me into an alternate state of mind...and i hate it...and I'm soooo close to email him and telling him I dont want to see him...ugg!! I feel like there is such tension around this...and I have to decide...email him or wait til he emails me-which I have a feeling will ask if we can meet later in the week...which makes me pissed..ugg
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I suppose by e-mailing him and telling him you want to cancel, will relieve you of the uncertainty of will he / won't he respond. But my guess is that even if you did that, you may still be wondering if he would respond to that e-mail and you'd still be waiting.
My T tells me that I can cancel sessions if I want to (I'm always going on about stopping), but his advice is that this shouldn't be done in response to a feeling and after a bit of thought I understood that, as our feelings can be so strong and overwhelming leading us to making the wrong choices - So I would ask yourself if you can be sure that your feelings now are not trying to lead you to making the wrong choice about seeing your T?
I know it is so hard waiting for T's to respond - are there any practical things you can do to try and get some relief for a while? Going for a walk, watching TV, putting in some boundaries as to how often you can check your e-mails, the Games forum on here realy helps me sometimes.
- Soup