Hi Chopin99,

I have caught up on some of your other posts about you and your T. I can really relate to that whole thing of working hard to trust T, sharing very private details and that at some stage having to say goodbye - it is the majoy stumbling block for me at the moment. I would love T to be in my life forever and the thought of having to say goodbye to him at some stage is almost too much.

I read somewhere on the internet that learning to trust and work to resolve problems with your T and then having to say goodbye is such an important thing to be able to do - it will prevent dependent relationships in the future and set us free from those things that can bind us to unhealthy relationships. In addition we will all face bereavement from close friends / family at some point in our lives and learning to deal with the "loss" of the relationship with T can be a useful thing to explore and learn to cope with. It may be a really sad thing to have to do, but it will still be a useful part of our therapy journey.

As I said the thought of not seeing my T really torments me sometimes, but I trust in the work that we do and that oneday I will be in a better place to be able to face the loss of that relationship, maybe to be very sad, but not overwhelmed by my sadness and still able to function in life independently.

I think your short term goals sound great and many of them have inspired me.

Happy New Year to you - hugs - Soup