Wendy, I am sensitive as I had a t mistreat me badly for too long until I broke free. It was abuse and malpractice. I see you here trying to give us a picture of what no one but you can see and feel. I would be reporting her to licensing. So, telling you that you mistreat and destroy people is very helpful isn't it? One of the basic things I know about you is when people try to get close to you, you throw daggers to keep them away and keep yourself safe. This comes from a fear place and it takes repeated, over and over and over testing and work with a T to make sure they are safe and you can enter into that safe relationship where the real moving ahead can happen. I have told you repeatedly that I could never even speak or stay in the same room with my T for a very long time. I had no words. You are a kind and loving soul who has to slow down and define your values and goals.

If I had to set goals for my stranger friend I would start with self care. You must practice self care and kindness .5 hours daily.
2. You must spend .5 hours daily with each child and sincerely tell each one something positive they said or did each day.
3. You must look in the mirror and say that I want to believe I am.....and work on believing that good thing about yourself. Counter the negatives with a success you have ready to think about.
4. Life ain't no race. Slow down before you wake up like me with grey hair, pain and too many years gone by.

Take care Wendy. I believe in you.