(((LovesShelly)))

I'm not sure why ~ or how to stop acting one way, when feeling another way. I often find myself doing the same thing. Other than big smiles and laughter.

For me, my reason is self-hate and self-shame. People who publicly know me would never guess that I struggle so deeply with these emotions. They just think that I'm shy (and that's there too).

My T is working on getting me to agree with his view: I'm not evil. I do some good things, so I can't be all bad.

Just my experience...