Thanks a lot roundrun and gimmi for the hugs. Really needed them yesterday.

Now I study - i don`t know how it is in English - the dictionary gives me the word "bookkeeping". This for me to work somewhere normal and according to my logical abilities - not in a coffee. its a course a year and a half.

But for self-fulfillment, self-realization - i study - (and this is what he insisted on)- Economics. Psychology i took because it has been my dream of life. Like from the age of....13....14..15 and on....i have been reading books about it and even almost bought the school books....


Yes - T tells me to take care of myself. He also told me "I want to study but not to kill yourself on it." And was kind of....not really but lets say a little disturbed, nervous and insistent when i once told him i didn`t sleep a night. He said that I MUST have at least 6 hours of sleep

"Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal." This is SO TRUE!

Thank you very much for your warm reply.

It seems that yesterday i was still influenced by what happened in my previous college. Its a place i have never really belonged. So what happened there was supposed to happen - to reveal what was wrong with me - to ever go THERE in the first place!