Thanks Echos and Soup!

I don't know how to quote from two different posts, so I can't highlight how important your words are to me. I am a bit emotional right now because I got very little sleep-the klonopin isn't helping to control the thougths yet, or maybe never. Also, I have to deal with a family gathering this evening for a funeral, and this is a time I have to be around my father/abuser along with the other disfunctional siblings, cousins, etc. I wish now that I had used my wine/codeine combination to sleep last night because this is the only way I can currently turn off my brain for a few hours and rest.
My pdoc appt. is actually now 10 days away, so it is better than 2 weeks. The only way I can be seen earlier is the hospital route, and I believe I can maintain enough without going this route.
As I mentioned, I will see the t tomorrow, and I am getting ready to write down a bunch of feelings to go over while these are still fresh.

Thanks!
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