((((Purpleflyingmonkeys))))

I am sorry you are struggling and feeling so triggered. I can understand that feeling and want you to know you are not alone. I get migraines sometimes and I know how they feel. Many of my migraines though are not medically related. I know that when I am in the throws of memories hitting or someone within is pushing hard I often get a migraine that no med can touch. I often grab my head as it hurts so much.

Whenever I get back into the denial stage and want it all to go away I get another headache that feels like a migraine but it is the others letting me know they are there and it brings me back to the place to stop the denial, not until I do does the headache stop.

At times I feel this push around my eyes when I am facing a terrifying memory or when fear from myself and within is so high. If I am trying to talk about something so painful and it is something we were never to talk about, I often get a headache that feels like a migraine. Trust is a big issue still even though we have those we trust, when it comes to talking about something deep it often feels and presents itself as a headache or migraine symptoms that nothing can stop.

I often now have one within the seems to put a vice feeling around my head and it hurts as a migraine. There is nothing I can do when this happens but stop talking. If I am talking about something or even being told something this one does not want me to hear it feels the vice tightens until I stop talking or can no longer hear anything being said. It can be seen because often my eyes change and I look far away and nothing is getting through.

Each person is different though so my experiences may or may not be like anyone elses. I just know that sometimes what seems like a migraine can be anything but one. I do have migraine meds as I have and do get them. If it feels like a real migraine (as sometimes I can tell) I can take the med and lay down for a while and it will go away. I have had to go to the ER before as the migraines can get really bad and the med does not stop it. There are times though that I cannot tell and I try not to just take meds if I do not have to.

Grounding is good though I will admit often that is hard to do when the headaches hit, especially the vice one. I find that stopping talking and turning off is the best to stop that. It is hard especially when it is something that needs to be said or heard, but the pain is too much that I automatically go there.

I hope that you can get a t soon and that they will be able to help you. It does cause a lot of anxiety and so often others do not understand and explaining is just not possible. I do hear you there. Others often cannot get it and being told it's nothing or I'm sorry feels invalidating or that they do not care. Maybe they really do not get it but that does not take away how I feel or what is taking place.

I am sorry you are not being heard or listened to. I hear you and I do understand the best I can. Keep looking for a doctor and reaching out. You are not alone. We are listening and we care. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. If okay. Always.

dps