heya again sezzie! im so glad you replied.
well, my parents did know about my self harming, suicide attempts and eating disorder before, but before i relapsed on my self harming/depression i was only 10-12 so they dont know ive started again, a friend of the family (i call her my auntie but shes not realy, she has a horse that she lets me ride so i tell her everything) is the only one who knows, except a few of my closest friends who i have told, my auntie is the one who took me to the phychiatric ward when she started reading up on bi-polar. yes i go to school, i hate it, but my friends are great, except when they dont trust me for wearing long sleeves or arm warmers.

the ED started when my depression died down, i used to be (make sure your sitting down) 185 pounds, so when i dropped 80 pounds in about 10 months they worked it out, i was 13 and was put into hospital for 3 weeks because of it, then they started me eating today, i never reached my target weight, but because i was obese before they didnt want me to go too far. how long have you had an ED? and what were your weights? (sorry, you dont have to tell me, its just i like to know)

about the meds, i havent been put on anything for my bi-polar yet, because i have kidney/liver problems from a birth defect and im constantly on pain killers for my back (when i was 9 i chipped the top off 1 of my verterbre, i culd have been paralysed and fragments of the bone can touch my spinal chord and im in agony) so they need to find something that doesnt interfere with those two. are there any meds i should look out for not to take? i cant remember what i was taking for my depression before so i dont know if it will be the same.

i havent self harmer in 3 weeks (whoo go me) and i havent purged since thursday, but i havent eaten 3 set meals either, im gonna try that for the rest of the week! both of us should, 3 set meals, no purging and a totally 'normal' life! one day at a time, i suppose i better go grab some breakfast.

hopefully you will be able to get your parents off your back, and your alot happier, 3 set meals no purging remember! whoop!

i gotta get to school.... buhbye!

Siani x