Woke up with a bunch of negative self-talk. Not good at all. Been fighting it most of this morning. My husband is trying to be supportive, but I snapped at him. "You are not making me miserable, *I* am making me miserable!" I bet that made him feel absolutely helpless, but it's true.

Same thoughts in my head: you're not good enough, you don't deserve anything nice, why are you having fun when there's work to be done, you're useless unless you do something productive, you're useless unless you make me feel better, etc. on and on and on.

The thing is, I *know* where these thoughts are coming from...they are old "tapes" from childhood...and I should counter them with positive thoughts...be the adult that stands up for the child...

I thought when Mom and Dad died I would be more able to shut them off in my head. I didn't have to relive that family drama anymore. But no, they're still there criticizing me. I wish they'd go away for good!!