I can relate to you so much. I am depressed and over the holidays it has been so hard for me, my mother is constantly telling me to be happier and do stuff with the family, she doesn't know and she doesn't understand at all, I have tried talking to my best friend and she tries to be nice but she doesn't understand at all. So I have no one to talk to about it and it's like it is just all balled up inside of me. I have got to find a way to let it out or one of these days I might crack.