Take your time exploring the PC site - it's big and complicated, and I'm still figuring out new things on it. The forums are where it's at, in my opinion. Sometimes I read things in the other mental health support forums here and feel lucky to not have those illnesses or challenges!

I completely know what you mean about time just vanishing so fast, and feeling like you haven't moved an inch. That's a lot of what motivated me to go to a doctor for a dx and keep at it for treatment, even though I was feeling OK by the time I got to it. Well, that didn't last once I started changing meds around and now it seems like a rollercoaster all the time - but slowly getting better. And now I do have some hope that I won't end up in the situation (again) where months pass and I've gotten no work accomplished and I'm miserably depressed and everything just seems to get worse and worse.

So even though some days I feel like I rocked the boat for nothing and now I'm sinking, other time when I have a little more insight, I realize that as difficult as it is to take f-o-r-e-v-e-r to get meds right, there's a much better chance that things will go smoother for me in the future. I guess it's a mix of faith and hope that's easier to cultivate as you start to see some improvement.

Another thing to remember is that you're not doing nothing, and you're making progress, even if it doesn't feel that way. Getting treatment is not a quick fix for us, but more of a long-term investment, and sometimes it takes awhile for that to pay off. But keep at it - for most of us, things improve a lot with treatment.