Has the Paxil helped at all? Maybe talk to the doc about the level (if any) of relief you get.

When I was younger (and drinking), I went through men like water. I think it's was my personal destructive behavior, and it went on for years. Made me feel better at the moment, but like ***** afterwards. I didn't start to get better until all that stopped.

Gotta take care of #1, and that's you.