So it's 2012 and i'm back to T on Wednesday morning and just feeling a bit nervous and anxious already. I don't want to get really anxious and panic. I don't even know why i'm feeling like this it's not going to be a BIG session just a catch up session i believe so i don't understand why i'm reacting this way. I love therapy it's something that is keeping me going right now maybe i'm just putting to much on therapy at one point i put weather i lived or died on it (i don't know why guess i was out of hope and that was the last bit of hope i have). Hoping telling you guys will relax me. Were starting a new lot of trauma therapy soon and going to be discussing this which i am quite worried about as i ain't sure if i'm ready but i doubt he will be willing to work with me anymore if i don't say yes and sign the paperwork. I feel like I've gone backwards of the Christmas break, SIing again almost, suI thoughts, had a major up now a major down, before i was in the middle. I've resorted to calling the crisis line (which isn't good because all the information i tell them goes on record and my T see's it and i have to explain myself which isn't always very clear) I'm just going around in circles now. I'm sure it will be ok.