Herbals will not work as a "real" med, it may even complicate things. You probably need for the prescribing pdoc to go over different optional meds as your mood stabilizer, and dosages. To stop meds too increase or activate your creativity, is risky, even foolish when you weigh it creativity vs episodes and even worse.
I understand, really I do, how frustrating it is, but the right med or combo is key, after a few my pdoc hit on one that has been fine with me, hasn't effected anything in my life in a negative manner.
Don't give up yet, communicate with your doc and consider options.
I wish you luck with this,
DE