I want something I get it. I get everything I want in life an more. But it makes me feel worse. I'm drinking from the golden cup but it's cutting my throat.
Because I was never meant to be born. The worlds not meant to have Misha-zee.
I'm so bad that some higher being is watching over me, giving me what I want and making me choke on it, because I'm meant to be depressed so that I kill myself. Because I am that bad that the most fitting way for me to die is feeling like this.
All these years what's stopped me killing myself is my family and friends but I now realise that was selfish of me