Hi,

I met with a psychotherapist specializing in sexual orientation related issues..

He told me that I have internalized my childhood insecurities (fear of not being able to father a child, and not being masculine enough) and this has created a fear/guilt in seeking a female partner....

He also said that obsessive-compulsive nature of looking at nude male images for self-validation have led to the sexualization of the male physique.... He noted that I am potentially bi-sexual...

He told me that my fear of "not being able to father a child" have been mutually reinforced by confusing it with "lack of body hair", "masculinity" and "potential to sexually attract a women" and grown in strength over the years.

He said that only a strong MEDICAL EVIDENCE like testosterone analysis or sperm count would effectively counter my insecurities about my gender identity...

But I am freaking out... " What if the semen analysis says, I have low sperm count"... That would make things worse!!!

Please advice!! Thanks for your time!