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I have scars all over me. I used to pick on myself almost unconsciously when I was stressed out, so I have little marks all over me, especially on my face arms and breasts. All of this is a part of my depression, and I have since stopped, now that I have been taking medication. I went to a doctor a few months ago and he said that the scars would fade but they would still be visible. At first I didn’t care but these last few months I have started feeling extremely depressed at some point in time everyday. I keep on thinking “no guy is going to want you now; you just blew your chances of getting married”. I am average looking and have an average body, but the scars are noticeable, no matter what (they aren´t overwhelming).
Now that these thoughts keep coming to my head, I feel more and more depressed. I know obviously love isn’t based on looks, but how in the world will a guy give me a chance when what they will first notice is the scars? I am not beautiful and I do not have a hot body so, and let’s face it that is the first thing that would get a guy’s attention. I don´t flirt or casually hook up with random guys…I don’t even know where I´m going with this or what I am asking for by posting this. I’m just trying to get the anxiety out I think.
Any comments or suggestions are welcome.
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