I need help... 3 1/2 months ago I found pictures of some girl in my husband's phone, posing with lingerie on. There was one photo of her butt up close (disgusting). We've been together for over 10 years, married 4 years, have a 3 year old son, and JUST found out we were having another baby 2 weeks before this happened... He at first denied even knowing her, saying it was some random girl that saw him at work, got his number from a co-worker and started texting him. I called the girl, and his co-worker, found out she actually works with him (she's a CNA, he's a cook at a bursing home). And I got into the cell phone records, they were texting for 3 days before I found out (hundreds of texts). He also texted her a 4th day, after I found out, saying we were getting a divorce anyways so it didn't matter if he talked to her (In anger, I told him I wanted a divorce when I found out). She told me she KNEW he was married...he told her. The only good thing is that I found out RIGHT AWAY. So now, 3 months later, we're working on our marriage, he applied for another job (hasn't gotten called for an interview yet) but he still acts the same. He still works with the girl, I still can't trust him, its like reality has finally hit me. I can never trust him, my belly is getting bigger and bigger, all the joy has been taken out of my pregnancy, I'm just heartbroken and stressed everyday. Everyday I ask him if he saw her. Everyday I check the phone records to see who he's been texting and talking to. I'm a wreck. I constantly cry. I don't know what to do. I can't afford to get professional help. He refuses to go to counseling with me. He expects me to just get over it.. he says they never physically hooked up. Even if they did hook up, he would never tell me. I don't know what to do anyore. I'm so depressed. I have no energy, no joy in life. All I do is cry and nag my husband with questions, which pushes him away even more. I know I'm a pretty girl and have a lot to offer, I just can't believe this has happened to me, after 10 years of being together. I'm so depressed... I need help.