I had some things to add to my last reply. I reread your post and it made me think of a quote from Kurt Cobain, "Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." I completely agree with this (and not just because I practically worship Kurt Cobain ) But this is so true. Find a way to be happy with who you are. Do what you want, find who you were meant to be, no matter what people tell you. Good luck, again