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I'm really depressed these days and i can't seem to shift it at all, no matter what i do or say, nothing seems to work anymore. It's like life really hates me and wants me to give up and just let whatever is going to happen to let it whether it kills me or not.
People say look deep down in your heart and what does it tell you it wants....the reply i give them they hate but they asked and i'm pretty sure they would want me to tell them the truth and not lie to them but by their responce its like i should just lie to them. Be better for everyone.
What it the point in feeling things if they are just so hurtful that you just don't want to be around anymore and feel like there is no one who can help and feeling alone....others even think i push them away b/c of how i say things....how do i do that?!?! I really don't understand....whats changed?!?!?!
YES i feel ignored, YES i feel like no one cares, YES i feel worthless, YES i feel like i'm not loved, YES i feel like i let everyone down, YES i feel like my problems are nothing compared to others, YES i feel depressed, YES i feel alone and YES i feel like people would be better off without me in their lives!!
UGH i just really don't know anymore and who cares right??
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Don't get caught up in what could be, instead appreciate what is. Appreciate what you have & who you have, because the future can take it away from you.
iamspecial is thinking....when all else fails....sit back...look at it....then re-think and start again
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