yeah.. i'm like that too... a lot more when i was younger tho. Now it's all down... and fake moments when i pretend that i'm not me, and i put on a mask, and dissocatiate from any real thoughts of whats really going on within me.. but those fake moments are the only times that i'm able to be "happy" right now.. tho during my life it's came and gone.. usually as the situations and issues in my life would come and go..