hello!.
Well I am a 23 year old guy..
I can proudly say I have lived 23 years of pure happiness and joy... But this past year 2011 has been TERRIBLE...

I feel exactly like you.. well only that I am a guy... WTF how sad, how can I be gay? when 23 years of my life I have been SO SO SO SO SO attracted to women, all my fantasies, and all, what is happenning I hate this blah blah blah....

It just doesnt add up me to as of how and why this is happenning. I love the idea of women, I find them fascinating, the most beautiful thing in the world lets say... And I just feel extremly frustrated that I cant even flirt anymore b/c it is a contant battle with my own thoughts.. "oh no dont ask her out.. you are a fag, you cant..." "oh yeah flirt a little but for what if you are not gonna get it up or even like it... you dont like that anymore..."

I mean it is a constant pain.. and the worst, I cant share it with any of my friends... I mean I am a soccer player, "kind of popular", all my buddies are the ****, we like mean jokes, etc... and this is BRINGING ME DOWN so much...

I was gong out with a beautiful lovely girl... she was all over me.. I HAD TO LEAVE HER.. how was I going to explain this??

Well.. but we must focus on reality, it is happenning and for a reason, we just have to face the fear... of at least sharing it with our couple... Just find the right words to say it... and build your courage, I AM SURE YOU WILL FIND YOUR MAN and that he will understand....

for the time being.. simply smile